wormholes...that's how
wormholes...that's how

The viddy projects
My kung foo viddy
Jackie I'm ready for my debut!   920 KB
the fire project
This little viddy is what happens when you mix, a roommate, some ninjas, (no wait that was my imagination going off there) a barking chihuahua, kerosene and a match.  6.3 MB
I think Goo and I are going to be really good friends. See the encounter for yourself.  2.4 MB
Action figure Jesus
Action figure Jesus starring in "jesus…jesus christ." He's so holy.  5.7 MB
Hey man (Amen)
Action figure Jesus is back in "Hey Man (Amen)". I don't know why he speaks German when he meets the devil.  7.2 MB
Here's what happens when you mix a new Mac with a former PC user. Rean switched.  6.7 MB
RedRocket Crotch
This is a typical Friday at school with my students. No seriously.  6.9 MB
Outdoors + Gi
At the karate bug bash, I gave unsu a go with the cam rolling.  5.8 MB
Punchin out candles
It's only fun when it works and you don't get burned. Ugh, that was a silly play on words.  1.9 MB
The practice
8/9/2016 9:07:00 PM
I’ve been giving an average of 4-5 ABM lessons a day for the past 2 weeks. I’ve hit my first milestone of filling my schedule for the week and it’s taken about half the time I expected it would. I gave a lesson to a lady who had fibromyalgia and was in chronic pain for the past twenty years. She was astonished that she was pain free and moving well for almost 7 days leading up to her next lesson. Word of mouth from someone who has a good outcome is so wonderful…I think she told most of her relatives! The power of our brains to change and re-organize is really quite astonishing. I’ve never expect such dramatic outcomes but I almost always see subtle changes after every lesson. I get very enthusiastic when I hear feedback like this…like there's a bigger picture at play for me being drawn to do this kind of work. The joy it brings me when someone’s life has improved from their ability to change based on experiences I was able to provide them is incredible. To be able to continue evolving and learning while building my practice drives me to make any effort required.

I’ve been working 12 hour days on average 2-3 days a week and 8 hour days for the remainder of the work week for the past year. Building my practice first only in the evenings after a full time job all day. Now I find myself working evenings to accommodate my regular clients who need to get in on a more frequent basis. I’ve been completely wiped for the past 2 evenings after I finally get home to rest. You want to feel good after an 8 hour day?…work a few 12 hour days a week then you really appreciate the free evenings when you only work 8 hours.

All of this in light of my post awhile ago about doing less this year. I have learned to pace myself well in the past month. Slow and steady really does help you focus and feel more. I’ve caught myself rushing in the past and now I realize that even though I have a lot to do, I’m ultimately in control of the pace it occurs. This has been a great to influence how I work with someone to get them to slow down and become more self aware.

I gave a lesson tonight to a guy with CP who was in a wheelchair. He was quite spastic and completely disorganized while lying on my table. Limbs at times held spastic in the air. As the lesson progressed, I noticed his breathing change and become slower and fuller. I noticed how his spastic limbs started to drop and become better organized in the gravitational field. As he quieted and flattened out somewhat on the table I felt how my nervous system and brain was able to guide his to become more aware of parts of himself. As I took his spastic arm in the direction of his face, I felt his elbow soften and as his own hand touched the side of his face he let out a big sigh. Perhaps this is what Moshe Feldenkrais was referring to in his book The Elusive Obvious when he said:
“These hands sense at the same time as they direct. Both the touched and the toucher feel what they sense through the connecting hands, even if they do not understand and do not know what is being done. The touched person becomes aware of what the touching person feels and, without understanding, alters his configuration to conform to what he senses is wanted from him. When touching I seek nothing from the person I touch; I only feel what the touched person needs, whether he knows it or not, and what I can do at that moment to make the person feel better.”

This gives me a different perspective now daily. How can I get irate about a traffic light, or a guy at the grocery store who bangs into my cart? When I’m spending so much time thinking about how our brains are able to change. I start to question all of the ideas I have about love. What is love if not caring for a person giving them your attention and focus and helping them feel better about themselves. My awareness and compassion has increased and that has made me truly happy in those connected moments. What if all of us felt that connected to each other daily? The world would be a better place.
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Filling up my cup
7/20/2016 11:41:00 PM
Last week as I explained the approach of the Anat Baniel Method to a new client on the phone, someone in the waiting room sat intently listening to the call. She had a stroke a few years ago which affected her left side. She had had physio and various rehabilitation approaches since then and still wasn't able to walk without a gait or use her left arm. She immediately asked about it when I got off the phone.

After her first lesson I noticed that her left leg was less spastic, and more importantly her torso wasn't spastic and she could even begin to differentiate between her ribcage and her pelvis as I gently twisted them separately at the end of the lesson. She began to feel her pelvis and ribs along the left side. Yet her left arm remained quite spastic, bent at the elbow, the hand clasped into a fist near her chest.

When she returned for her second lesson, I asked if she had noticed any changes since her first lesson. She told me that she now feels her pelvis moving when she walks. She went home and lied down, and her spastic left arm which was habitually held tight to her chest, had lengthened down her left side. She was so enthusiastic for her second lesson. She then described how her left heel wasn't able to touch the floor and she swung her leg out to the side to clear the foot with each step.

After her second lesson today when I brought her up to standing she stood evenly and well balanced with the weight distributed evenly on her skeleton...and her left heel was fully touching the floor as it was on the right foot. When she became aware of how strong and balanced she felt on both sides, she then noticed her heel was down. Even before she asked to hug me, I could sense this was a powerful change for her. We hugged, and then she walked around I asked her to feel her pelvis and notice how flat her left foot had become, with each step just like it had on the right.

It was an overwhelming sensation for me, of enthusiasm and gratitude that I get to help people really change their lives in a profound way. My cup filled back up today helping this sweet woman rediscover herself and get a glimpse at the person she was before her stroke. She's now aware first hand that she can upgrade her brain and recover functional movement with more and more enriched learning experiences.

This evening, I had a great conversation with an old friend and a very new one that continued to make me feel blessed to have such wonderful caring positive people in my life.
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Happiness and intelligence
7/7/2016 11:11:00 PM
"The world breaks everyone, and afterward, some are strong at the broken places." Ernest Miller Hemingway

I've never felt more courage to be different and come from a place of helping others first. I had an amazing experience today with a little boy with Autism. The connection you can have with children when you are helping them learn is powerful. Someone once told me that I was likely on the spectrum because of my particularities and penchant for analyzing and math. I don't think they took into account my love of connecting with people from being truly interested in who they are and what makes them tick. Coming from a place of helping and connecting instead of fixing and correcting. If I'm on the spectrum I say we all are on one end or the other. I'm quite comfortable existing here in my quadrant, because happiness lives here.

"Happiness in intelligent people is the rarest thing I know." - Ernest Miller Hemingway
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My departure from Technology.
5/27/2016 2:32:00 PM
I’ve worked in the IT field for over 20 years. In that time, I’ve seen incredible developments in web technology and design. I’ve even been a part of a scappy little startup for the past 8 years that has just recently really solidified its roots as a company that is disrupting the digital signage industry. It makes me proud to know that I am a shareholder; that I've invested in this company and will continue to support them and cheer on their success.

As a woman in this field I have seen my share of stereotyped behavior from everyone from sales people to fellow developers about a female working in technology. The bias is formed around the mis-informed perception that women are not seen as having the intelligence to understand technology enough to develop it. I’ve worked on both sides of development teams in the past. From being the one who codes a website application to create a contest engine, or even developing this very blog from code (not Wordpress - hell even before Wordpress), to being the one who builds a brand and allows a company to be perceived that they are farther down the runway than they are; creating a perception of success that directly impacts how customers buy. As I reflect on all of it, I realize that it always came easy to me. It was never difficult to learn new software or develop with new methodologies. Each time I would add to the base of skills I already had and the ease of adoption for anything new was an easy fit. I suppose it’s just how my mind works. I wouldn’t have been drawn to this industry if I wasn’t a little bit of a designer mixed with a developer. Gosh, I'm not even content just using one dominant hand, I've been ambidextrous for as long as I can remember.

I had a conversation with a woman today who’s working in technology in the sense that they are a content writer and social media user. After hearing that I was retiring she said “Yes, it must be hard to keep learning new technology.” Which I replied, “No, I’ve never had a problem with that in the 20 years I’ve been doing it.” She made the assumption that I was leaving to pursue an “easier” career. One that didn’t require as much thinking or learning. I didn’t expect this type of bias from another woman, one who perhaps doesn’t develop technology, but at the very least adopts the use of it easily. She perpetuates the notion that technology is hard which isn’t true. It’s all about passion. I am passionate learning anything new. Doing the same things over and over can be boring for me. I love to create and design and build things. It’s easy when you follow your passion.

The thing that isn’t explained when a conversation like the one above becomes awkward, is that my passion has changed. I’ve moved from technology as a focus to the brain and the field of neuroscience. That is where my new passion lies. It’s easy to understand once you know the life journey I’ve had. Once I learned the Anat Baniel MethodSM (ABM), there was no easy way to not get bored using a computer every day. I never thought I would say that 20 years ago. You see, watching my daughter at the pediatrician this week was reassurance that I had made all of the right choices so far. I can honestly say that I doubt she’s seen a child with hemiplegia CP progress as well as my daughter has. So what’s the difference? Surely there are other hemiplegia CP kids in PEI that had all of the same therapies that my daughter has...all but one...ABM. They aren’t seeing the same outcomes because they weren’t given the same learning experiences. So it's with that idea, that they could be doing just as well as my daughter has that drives me head first into a new career working with adults and children with special needs to provide the same experiences and opportunities to learn and change.

Steve Jobs, once asked the Pepsi CEO if he wanted to sell sugar water for the rest of his life or if he wanted to change the world. When I truly reflect on that and what it means over the course of your lifetime and what you've been put here to do, I can't sell sugar water anymore. I don't have plans to change the whole world...well not right away, but I do have plans to change the lives of some very special children. So that they are able to completely change their trajectory in life to live a life with more happiness and comfort being themselves.

Well that said, I doubt I will go on much of a tech hiatus. I'm drawn to anything that challenges me to think and keep learning. Which is what ABM does for me. I've had to really upgrade my brain over the past 3 years, and I have to continue upgrading and evolving to be able to help someone upgrade theirs.

I'm glad we had this little chat. For any of you young girls out there thinking of getting into the field of design or technology please feel free to contact me and ask questions or get help with something you are learning or just reach out if you are facing the people who think tech is too hard for women. It isn't. I will call you up and tell you so as much as you need.
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Introducing the Zenbit 1.0 beta.
1/15/2016 6:14:00 PM
I promised a minimalism post 6 months ago so here are some thoughts I’ve accumulated since then.

I attended the Graphic Design Advisory Committee meeting today at Holland College. The instructor April and I had the following conversation, not really related to design but definitely related to marketing.

“Is that an iWatch you are wearing?”
“No it’s a Fitbit.”
“It tracks my 10,000 steps a day and if I’m short for the week, I’m jogging in place in my living room at the end of a day to reach my goal!”

“Isn’t that deliberate insanity?”

It’s as though the marketing of this Fitbit era smacked me in the face and I was repelled in the opposite direction with such clarity.

“I’m going to invent the Zenbit. You basically sit there and do nothing and stare at it. It doesn’t track your performance. It doesn’t have any goals to measure. It reminds you to do nothing.”

Zenbit - copyright Shizamo

If I have a New Year’s resolution this year, it’s to do less. That’s it. Less not more. Well and maybe market the Zenbit. I kid, I kid.

Just today a friend sent me an email about Wu wei.

Wu wei means – in Chinese – non-doing or ‘doing nothing’. It sounds like a pleasant invitation to relax or worse, fall into laziness or apathy. Yet this concept is key to the noblest kind of action according to the philosophy of Daoism – and is at the heart of what it means to follow Dao or The Way. According to the central text of Daoism, theDao De Jing: ‘The Way never acts yet nothing is left undone’. This is the paradox of wu wei. It doesn’t meant not acting, it means ‘effortless action’ or ‘actionless action’. It means being at peace while engaged in the most frenetic tasks so that one can carry these out with maximum skill and efficiency…

Wu wei involves letting go of ideals that we may otherwise try to force too violently onto things; it invites us instead to respond to the true demands of situations, which tend only to be noticed when we put our own ego-driven plans aside. What can follow is a loss of self-consciousness, a new unity between the self and its environment, which releases an energy that is normally held back by an overly aggressive, wilful style of thinking.

This strikes a chord with me these days because of my Anat Baniel Method training. As practitioners we don’t override or take over movement for someone, instead we often go for a ride, or wait, inviting movement until the student figures out a way to do something with what you are calling upon their nervous system. Waiting and waiting sometimes, allowing them time to process it. They are acting and we can then invite more movement or help them to perceive a difference when there was no movement. If I were to take over and move them there is no learning on their part. The key part of the relationship is waiting for them to make sense of things. To create order from the disorder.

Sandy the other design instructor touched on this too in regards to teaching design "You can't teach creativity to a student, but you can guide them and direct it."

How can I help someone slow down long enough to figure things out if I don’t myself? I truly believe there will be a place for me to help others do less and learn about themselves more with this technology connected, over achieving, multi-tasking, goal oriented, competitive culture we live in. That is not to say I don’t have goals or embrace technology. I know that I tire of technology. I know that there is happiness to be found looking inwards not outwards. I know that I have goals but they are flexible goals…I certainly won’t break if they aren’t attained. I certainly won’t ignore my instinct to rest when by body is telling me to do so, but my device is telling me that I haven’t reached a goal that truly won’t matter at the end of the day, or the week or your life.

It’s familiar in Karate too. We never attack first. We take the opponent’s energy and redirect it. The first move is a block never a strike.

It’s certainly in line with my minimalist approach of wanting less and being content with what you have. I can find peace in this direction as I sure haven’t found it being busy, searching high and low for what’s missing.
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9/17/2015 10:50:00 PM
"They were right when they said
We were breathing underwater
Out of place all the time
In a world that wasn't mine to take

I'll wait
Is this my life?
Am I breathing underwater?"
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guide me through this Gichin
8/4/2015 10:15:00 PM
hitotsu, jinkaku kansei ni tsutomeru koto
hitotsu, makoto no michi wo mamoru koto
hitotsu, doryoku no seishin wo yashinau koto
hitotsu, reigi wo omonzuru koto
hitotsu, kekki no yū wo imashimuru koto
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Banff, Canada

to search my twisted thoughts with ease!


Read my Open Letter to the Government of PEI and Health PEI here.

Ren was my chihuahua.
Ren had a bad attitude most days, he bit people, but he knew tricks too.

**Doggie bloggie.**
(Refresh for more ren thoughts.)
This is as close as I get to having my own doggie bloggie.

Various photo galleries here.


Photos of Brasil

February 3rd - 11th, 2005
Sau Paulo, Brazil
Carnival...Check out the carnival costume.

Flash in the Can 2004

Photos of FITC 2004
April 3rd - 5th, 2004.

Photos of Belize, Jul. 26th - Aug. 10th, 2003. Vacation, Mayan ruins and snorkling.

For your mathly addictions. My java calculator...(You need the Java Plug-in to view.) Psst...try dividing by zero, I think I handled that quite nicely. ;) Check it...

How do you become a geek you ask? Hmmm. I dunno. All I can tell is how it came about for me... Here's an except: 1981: I use a commodore Vic20 for the first time. 5 kb RAM + 15 kb ROM = 20 kb. I want to learn Basic.. Read More...

Shizamo elsewhere
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and I kick ninja ass too!
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