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The viddy projects
My kung foo viddy
Jackie I'm ready for my debut!   920 KB
the fire project
This little viddy is what happens when you mix, a roommate, some ninjas, (no wait that was my imagination going off there) a barking chihuahua, kerosene and a match.  6.3 MB
I think Goo and I are going to be really good friends. See the encounter for yourself.  2.4 MB
Action figure Jesus
Action figure Jesus starring in "jesus…jesus christ." He's so holy.  5.7 MB
Hey man (Amen)
Action figure Jesus is back in "Hey Man (Amen)". I don't know why he speaks German when he meets the devil.  7.2 MB
Here's what happens when you mix a new Mac with a former PC user. Rean switched.  6.7 MB
RedRocket Crotch
This is a typical Friday at school with my students. No seriously.  6.9 MB
Outdoors + Gi
At the karate bug bash, I gave unsu a go with the cam rolling.  5.8 MB
Punchin out candles
It's only fun when it works and you don't get burned. Ugh, that was a silly play on words.  1.9 MB
Filling up my cup
7/20/2016 11:41:00 PM
Last week as I explained the approach of the Anat Baniel Method to a new client on the phone, someone in the waiting room sat intently listening to the call. She had a stroke a few years ago which affected her left side. She had had physio and various rehabilitation approaches since then and still wasn't able to walk without a gait or use her left arm. She immediately asked about it when I got off the phone.

After her first lesson I noticed that her left leg was less spastic, and more importantly her torso wasn't spastic and she could even begin to differentiate between her ribcage and her pelvis as I gently twisted them separately at the end of the lesson. She began to feel her pelvis and ribs along the left side. Yet her left arm remained quite spastic, bent at the elbow, the hand clasped into a fist near her chest.

When she returned for her second lesson, I asked if she had noticed any changes since her first lesson. She told me that she now feels her pelvis moving when she walks. She went home and lied down, and her spastic left arm which was habitually held tight to her chest, had lengthened down her left side. She was so enthusiastic for her second lesson. She then described how her left heel wasn't able to touch the floor and she swung her leg out to the side to clear the foot with each step.

After her second lesson today when I brought her up to standing she stood evenly and well balanced with the weight distributed evenly on her skeleton...and her left heel was fully touching the floor as it was on the right foot. When she became aware of how strong and balanced she felt on both sides, she then noticed her heel was down. Even before she asked to hug me, I could sense this was a powerful change for her. We hugged, and then she walked around I asked her to feel her pelvis and notice how flat her left foot had become, with each step just like it had on the right.

It was an overwhelming sensation for me, of enthusiasm and gratitude that I get to help people really change their lives in a profound way. My cup filled back up today helping this sweet woman rediscover herself and get a glimpse at the person she was before her stroke. She's now aware first hand that she can upgrade her brain and recover functional movement with more and more enriched learning experiences.

This evening, I had a great conversation with an old friend and a very new one that continued to make me feel blessed to have such wonderful caring positive people in my life.
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Happiness and intelligence
7/7/2016 11:11:00 PM
"The world breaks everyone, and afterward, some are strong at the broken places." Ernest Miller Hemingway

I've never felt more courage to be different and come from a place of helping others first. I had an amazing experience today with a little boy with Autism. The connection you can have with children when you are helping them learn is powerful. Someone once told me that I was likely on the spectrum because of my particularities and penchant for analyzing and math. I don't think they took into account my love of connecting with people from being truly interested in who they are and what makes them tick. Coming from a place of helping and connecting instead of fixing and correcting. If I'm on the spectrum I say we all are on one end or the other. I'm quite comfortable existing here in my quadrant, because happiness lives here.

"Happiness in intelligent people is the rarest thing I know." - Ernest Miller Hemingway
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My departure from Technology.
5/27/2016 2:32:00 PM
I’ve worked in the IT field for over 20 years. In that time, I’ve seen incredible developments in web technology and design. I’ve even been a part of a scappy little startup for the past 8 years that has just recently really solidified its roots as a company that is disrupting the digital signage industry. It makes me proud to know that I am a shareholder; that I've invested in this company and will continue to support them and cheer on their success.

As a woman in this field I have seen my share of stereotyped behavior from everyone from sales people to fellow developers about a female working in technology. The bias is formed around the mis-informed perception that women are not seen as having the intelligence to understand technology enough to develop it. I’ve worked on both sides of development teams in the past. From being the one who codes a website application to create a contest engine, or even developing this very blog from code (not Wordpress - hell even before Wordpress), to being the one who builds a brand and allows a company to be perceived that they are farther down the runway than they are; creating a perception of success that directly impacts how customers buy. As I reflect on all of it, I realize that it always came easy to me. It was never difficult to learn new software or develop with new methodologies. Each time I would add to the base of skills I already had and the ease of adoption for anything new was an easy fit. I suppose it’s just how my mind works. I wouldn’t have been drawn to this industry if I wasn’t a little bit of a designer mixed with a developer. Gosh, I'm not even content just using one dominant hand, I've been ambidextrous for as long as I can remember.

I had a conversation with a woman today who’s working in technology in the sense that they are a content writer and social media user. After hearing that I was retiring she said “Yes, it must be hard to keep learning new technology.” Which I replied, “No, I’ve never had a problem with that in the 20 years I’ve been doing it.” She made the assumption that I was leaving to pursue an “easier” career. One that didn’t require as much thinking or learning. I didn’t expect this type of bias from another woman, one who perhaps doesn’t develop technology, but at the very least adopts the use of it easily. She perpetuates the notion that technology is hard which isn’t true. It’s all about passion. I am passionate learning anything new. Doing the same things over and over can be boring for me. I love to create and design and build things. It’s easy when you follow your passion.

The thing that isn’t explained when a conversation like the one above becomes awkward, is that my passion has changed. I’ve moved from technology as a focus to the brain and the field of neuroscience. That is where my new passion lies. It’s easy to understand once you know the life journey I’ve had. Once I learned the Anat Baniel MethodSM (ABM), there was no easy way to not get bored using a computer every day. I never thought I would say that 20 years ago. You see, watching my daughter at the pediatrician this week was reassurance that I had made all of the right choices so far. I can honestly say that I doubt she’s seen a child with hemiplegia CP progress as well as my daughter has. So what’s the difference? Surely there are other hemiplegia CP kids in PEI that had all of the same therapies that my daughter has...all but one...ABM. They aren’t seeing the same outcomes because they weren’t given the same learning experiences. So it's with that idea, that they could be doing just as well as my daughter has that drives me head first into a new career working with adults and children with special needs to provide the same experiences and opportunities to learn and change.

Steve Jobs, once asked the Pepsi CEO if he wanted to sell sugar water for the rest of his life or if he wanted to change the world. When I truly reflect on that and what it means over the course of your lifetime and what you've been put here to do, I can't sell sugar water anymore. I don't have plans to change the whole world...well not right away, but I do have plans to change the lives of some very special children. So that they are able to completely change their trajectory in life to live a life with more happiness and comfort being themselves.

Well that said, I doubt I will go on much of a tech hiatus. I'm drawn to anything that challenges me to think and keep learning. Which is what ABM does for me. I've had to really upgrade my brain over the past 3 years, and I have to continue upgrading and evolving to be able to help someone upgrade theirs.

I'm glad we had this little chat. For any of you young girls out there thinking of getting into the field of design or technology please feel free to contact me and ask questions or get help with something you are learning or just reach out if you are facing the people who think tech is too hard for women. It isn't. I will call you up and tell you so as much as you need.
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Introducing the Zenbit 1.0 beta.
1/15/2016 6:14:00 PM
I promised a minimalism post 6 months ago so here are some thoughts I’ve accumulated since then.

I attended the Graphic Design Advisory Committee meeting today at Holland College. The instructor April and I had the following conversation, not really related to design but definitely related to marketing.

“Is that an iWatch you are wearing?”
“No it’s a Fitbit.”
“It tracks my 10,000 steps a day and if I’m short for the week, I’m jogging in place in my living room at the end of a day to reach my goal!”

“Isn’t that deliberate insanity?”

It’s as though the marketing of this Fitbit era smacked me in the face and I was repelled in the opposite direction with such clarity.

“I’m going to invent the Zenbit. You basically sit there and do nothing and stare at it. It doesn’t track your performance. It doesn’t have any goals to measure. It reminds you to do nothing.”

Zenbit - copyright Shizamo

If I have a New Year’s resolution this year, it’s to do less. That’s it. Less not more. Well and maybe market the Zenbit. I kid, I kid.

Just today a friend sent me an email about Wu wei.

Wu wei means – in Chinese – non-doing or ‘doing nothing’. It sounds like a pleasant invitation to relax or worse, fall into laziness or apathy. Yet this concept is key to the noblest kind of action according to the philosophy of Daoism – and is at the heart of what it means to follow Dao or The Way. According to the central text of Daoism, theDao De Jing: ‘The Way never acts yet nothing is left undone’. This is the paradox of wu wei. It doesn’t meant not acting, it means ‘effortless action’ or ‘actionless action’. It means being at peace while engaged in the most frenetic tasks so that one can carry these out with maximum skill and efficiency…

Wu wei involves letting go of ideals that we may otherwise try to force too violently onto things; it invites us instead to respond to the true demands of situations, which tend only to be noticed when we put our own ego-driven plans aside. What can follow is a loss of self-consciousness, a new unity between the self and its environment, which releases an energy that is normally held back by an overly aggressive, wilful style of thinking.

This strikes a chord with me these days because of my Anat Baniel Method training. As practitioners we don’t override or take over movement for someone, instead we often go for a ride, or wait, inviting movement until the student figures out a way to do something with what you are calling upon their nervous system. Waiting and waiting sometimes, allowing them time to process it. They are acting and we can then invite more movement or help them to perceive a difference when there was no movement. If I were to take over and move them there is no learning on their part. The key part of the relationship is waiting for them to make sense of things. To create order from the disorder.

Sandy the other design instructor touched on this too in regards to teaching design "You can't teach creativity to a student, but you can guide them and direct it."

How can I help someone slow down long enough to figure things out if I don’t myself? I truly believe there will be a place for me to help others do less and learn about themselves more with this technology connected, over achieving, multi-tasking, goal oriented, competitive culture we live in. That is not to say I don’t have goals or embrace technology. I know that I tire of technology. I know that there is happiness to be found looking inwards not outwards. I know that I have goals but they are flexible goals…I certainly won’t break if they aren’t attained. I certainly won’t ignore my instinct to rest when by body is telling me to do so, but my device is telling me that I haven’t reached a goal that truly won’t matter at the end of the day, or the week or your life.

It’s familiar in Karate too. We never attack first. We take the opponent’s energy and redirect it. The first move is a block never a strike.

It’s certainly in line with my minimalist approach of wanting less and being content with what you have. I can find peace in this direction as I sure haven’t found it being busy, searching high and low for what’s missing.
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9/17/2015 10:50:00 PM
"They were right when they said
We were breathing underwater
Out of place all the time
In a world that wasn't mine to take

I'll wait
Is this my life?
Am I breathing underwater?"
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guide me through this Gichin
8/4/2015 10:15:00 PM
hitotsu, jinkaku kansei ni tsutomeru koto
hitotsu, makoto no michi wo mamoru koto
hitotsu, doryoku no seishin wo yashinau koto
hitotsu, reigi wo omonzuru koto
hitotsu, kekki no yū wo imashimuru koto
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My own fairy tale beginning.
7/30/2015 12:02:00 PM
My daughter, Vaeda Zo was born June 6, 2011. She was diagnosed with Hemiplegic Cerebral Palsy in her first year of life. Hemiplegia is similar to a stroke and in Vaeda's case the left side of her body was affected. As I learned about Cerebral Palsy what gave me hope that my daughter would someday experience running, was our brains have a tremendous ability to create new connections (neuroplasticity).

The MRI of our daughter Vaeda's brain shows that she has scar tissue on the right hemisphere, which we were told occurred as she suffered a stroke while in the womb. This brain injury means the movement on her left side is affected. Neural connections to use her left arm, hand and leg haven't been well formed during early development. Movement with attention creates these connections elsewhere in the brain so that the loss of functioning returns. In fact children with Cerebral Palsy and other developmental delays who get the help they need, have "extra"ordinary brains as they have mapped functioning to new areas of their brains to overcome their "dis-ability."
We began getting Osteopathic treatment locally right away at McKinnon Health, which immediately afterwards she began moving her left arm. Our osteopath told us about the Anat Baniel Method (ABM), and recommended the book Kid's Beyond Limits by Anat Baniel. After reading the book, we decided to take a week long trip to Halifax to get an intensive 10 lessons when Vaeda was about a year and a half old. After those lessons Vaeda began to sit up evenly without leaning to the left. After that success, I decided to take the ABM training program to become a practitioner in 2013 when Vaeda turned two years old.

At two, she had another intensive 8 lessons. At that time, her vocabulary increased and she was a very expressive chatty happy girl. She was scooting on her bum to move around. Vaeda wasn't able to crawl and was delayed walking. We advocated for increased physiotherapy and occupational therapy at the QEH from 1 appointment a month to 1 appointment every week. She progressed well during this time and began walking holding on to a walker or someone's hand. We decided to take Vaeda to the ABM Centre in California just after she turned 3 years old and she began walking on her own. After only 3 lessons with one of the best ABM practitioners in the world, instead of her left leg being out on an angle to support herself in standing as she had developed with physiotherapy, her alignment had changed to have her leg under her hips as it was on the right. Since then she has improved at a tremendous rate as her weight bearing shifted and her balance improved. She now runs, and jumps unassisted! Her left arm continues to improve as well, and she uses her arm quite well. The functioning of her left hand continues to improve, and I believe will continue to improve as I work with her as I complete my training. 
We sold our house in West Royalty to downsize to a mobile home in the country to afford the training which is $35,000 USD in tuition over 4 years. I've made 8 trips to California for a period of 10 days at a time since 2013 to complete my basic training and in June of this year graduated as a Certified ABM Practitioner. I will continue on with the ABM Children's Mastery Program this fall that will require 4 more trips to California. The airfare and accommodation has taken the total investment to well over $60,000. The ABM lessons aren't currently covered by insurance companies, so the lessons Vaeda received were all out of pocket and cost close to $2500. Getting insurance companies to cover this type of neuro rehabilitation by extended health plans is something I will continue to advocate for in Canada. The advances of neuroscience support this type of rehabilitation and the outcomes have surpassed traditional methods. 

The decision to take the training came from a deep desire as a mother to help my own child to have the same chances for development as any other child...and a deep passion to help other children get the same benefit and opportunities that Vaeda has. This experience has forever changed the course of my life for the better as it showed me how helping others has made such a difference in their lives that it has brought meaning to my own.
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New York Subway

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Read my Open Letter to the Government of PEI and Health PEI here.

Ren was my chihuahua.
Ren had a bad attitude most days, he bit people, but he knew tricks too.

**Doggie bloggie.**
(Refresh for more ren thoughts.)
You'll get Yo quiero taco bell nacho supremo.

Various photo galleries here.


Photos of Brasil

February 3rd - 11th, 2005
Sau Paulo, Brazil
Carnival...Check out the carnival costume.

Flash in the Can 2004

Photos of FITC 2004
April 3rd - 5th, 2004.

Photos of Belize, Jul. 26th - Aug. 10th, 2003. Vacation, Mayan ruins and snorkling.

For your mathly addictions. My java calculator...(You need the Java Plug-in to view.) Psst...try dividing by zero, I think I handled that quite nicely. ;) Check it...

How do you become a geek you ask? Hmmm. I dunno. All I can tell is how it came about for me... Here's an except: 1981: I use a commodore Vic20 for the first time. 5 kb RAM + 15 kb ROM = 20 kb. I want to learn Basic.. Read More...

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